hehe. I used to listen to this all the time back in HS. I really liked the Eva movie this was featured in. Now, they're making a new Evangelion movie in Hollywood. I hope it's good...well better that that stupid Dragonball movie. =P I'm also looking forward to that "Alice in Wonderland" Movie by Tim Burton. Johnny Depp(yet again) plays the Mad Hatter :). basta... the trailer is nice. Oh!!!! and M. Night Shyamalan's "Avatar" movie.. I want to watch that too. I have to cut this short becaue I'm so sleepy I'm having difficulty putting together coherent sentences. Half my brain cells are asleep. -.o 

Sadyang masama maaddict sa facebook. >.>

 On the other hand,


One of my favorite scenes from the movie "Across the Universe". i like her version of the Beatles' song. =)

 Illiteracy is not an excuse for carelessness and stupidity. 

The best thing I've done in my short life was leave Cavite.

Thank you for saving me. =)

I love you. 

 Carlo has been singing this song nonstop and now it's stuck >.> 

 I decided to cook something different today. I made meatball Spaghetti and got different reactions.

Ethan: Spicy! meatball basgeti! 
Liam: Pateti bols
Casey: papapapaaaa... paaaaa!

:) friday is meatball spaghetti day then ^0^ yum! =9

hah! I finished them all!!!

I finished cooking before 12, finished the damn laundry, made the kids take a bath, made ethan go to school, made caitln take her nap, did the dishes, cleaned the bottles and now.... I am f@cking sore all over. My neck, shoulder, back and thigh muscles feel like they're about to die. >.<;;; hahaha a few years ago I couldn't hae done all those things. I'd prolly roll my eyes and ask someone else to do it for me. :D Leaving Cavite for a while did me a world of good. I grew up. I learned to live. I healed. These chores are nothing. I love it when my babies smell good and their lola asks what detergent/fabcon I'm using. hehehe. I love it when I see Ethan finish his lunch and say "that's pretty much what my stomach wanted to eat. I love your cooking mommy." I love it when Casey cries even when I'm in the middle of something and want me to carry her and cuddle her. I love it when Liam snuggles up to me and smiles his goofy smiles and shows me his dimples.

These chores are nothing coz they are my everything. I love doing things for you. ^-^

now dammit do something for me. I need a fucking back rub >.>;;

I need to:

*clean the chicken and prepare tinola before 12
*clean the bottles
*do the laundry
*clean the dishes

~ >.> I'm already starting to eel lazy.

=D

***

It was raining.

The wind was cold and the roar of a thousand raindrops was deafening.

"Come on." you said, grabbing my hand, urging me to  join you and Ethan playing at the patio. Ethan was laughing, feeling the raindrops on his tongue.
"I don't think so" I heard myself say. "It's too cold outside..." I held on to my coffee and watched the two of you play. 
You whispered something in Ethan's ear and a few seconds later he came running to me, hugged my pajamas and pretty much made a mess on our living room floor. He mumbled something I couldn't understand.
"What did you say?"
"He said 'mommy don't be KJ'" you translated. 
And before I could say another word, you carried me outside.
"wtf..." I shivered and stuttered at the sudden cold that gripped me. I was soaking wet and the both of you were laughing. I swatted you and cursed at you. 
"Dammit i t-t-told y-you I hat-e the c-c-old." I was near tears and my lips were turning bluish. 
"Awww... it'll go away. Let's take a walk!".
"noooo...l-l-lightning might hit us." I was starting to whine and I was looking for excuses to get back inside the house.
"Psh." You pushed me out of the gate and then you held me really close.
So we walked till we reached the next street and then we walked back towards the house again. By then, i was glad that the rain was heavy enough to hide us from the neighbors. i hoped noone was watching. The three of us skipping and laughing, getting soaked and getting crazy in the middle of a storm. ugh. they must think we've gone insane.
"Still cold?" he asked.
I shook my head. "Just a little."
Then he smiled and gave me a kiss.
"Sssseeeee? It wasn't so bad. I'm here to keep the cold away."
I smiled back and tilted my head up for more kisses.


I didn't even notice it stopped raining.
  
 
***

I woke up in the middle of the night, crying. bits and pieces of the nightmare still clung to my thoughts and i wept. I still had that problem wherein once I started to cry, i just couldn't stop. I was sick of it. I was sick of those nightmares and I was still sick of my past. I tried so hard to cry silently so I wouldn't wake you, but then maybe you were listening the whole time.
He didn't have to say anything. He knew I wouldn't talk.
He just hugged me real tight and cried with me.

When the sun came up and we saw how swollen our eyes were, we just laughed at each other then stayed in.  


***


I'm missing you love. we'll see each other tomorrow after three months! =) i can't wait.

"Yesterday's history
Tomorrow's a mystery
but today is a gift
that is why it is called the present."

~Master Oogwei~

**reposted*

I wake up 
in the middle of the night
and find myself
laughing
at everything
then
crying
over nothing
.
.
.

*sigh* I scare myself sometimes.

=) I wish I didn't delete ivory_tears  coz I miss her. bubbly, confident, young me.
 
I truly miss High school.

*sigh* 

 ok ok! last na talaga! *blink sleepy eyes*



this makes me feel old. T_T

 For annani  =) and our silly, wonderful conversations. 



"a guiltless, twisted lie.."  and so and so.... =) i ♥ this song

I'm not the only one who talks to myself. :)

*whew* I thought I was crazy entertaining those voices in my head. =D

I so adore Carlo's little brother ^0^ 

I love wearing your clothes while your away.
I love the way they smell of detergent and ever so faintly of you.
I love the way it feels knowing that you've felt this too.
I'm longing for you. I'm missing you.
It's bugging me all day.
These thoughts of you.
And your voice at the back of my head
whispering
Do the laundry 

***
o.o i ran out of underwear and used Carl's boxers :D ehhh they're comfy and i left most of my underwear @ mam jo's place when I stayed in Cavite x__X;;
***

I'm looking for an excuse not to do the laundry. =/

...

look! it's raining! ¬.¬

 I'm tired of seeing...black.

Pao does not have Photoshop installed and I can't make my own layout. =/ saka na lang. When carl gets home and gets his pc fixed. 

A few years back...

I would not have seen the humor in this :)

( Get a clue )

My life needs direction...


wait...


let me consult the daily horoscope.